It ALMOST happened. Almost.
We got a call from our social worker yesterday telling us that she had some 3 year old twins who were needing a home. A family.
The state was in process of terminating the parental rights of the biological parents and these twins would be up for adoption.
Just like that I got "the call."
All those months of preparation and all those months of being told that we would wait years and all those moments of telling myself not to expect a call anytime soon had not prepared me for that call. Now what?
Sadly, the social worker had very little information about these children but promised she would find out more and tell me this morning some details about the sibling group.
Last night I couldn't sleep. I had become too comfortable in my easy life. We have our day to day routine down and I all of a sudden found myself faced with a total disruption of my life and that of the family.
I was a wimp. A faithless one at that and I admit I felt very ashamed.
This morning I dug deep into my soul and remembered why we chose this path, this journey into adoption. It's not about me or us. It's about much, much more. It's about having faith and trusting Him to provide not only the finances but also providing the patience and the grace and the love.
What did I do? I called my social worker this morning and my heart was filled with joy and excitement and anticipation! This was THE moment! These are OUR children!!
Unfortunately she informed me that these kids were actually not available to us. We would have to wait. Again.
Here's to a week of awakening.
Hope your weekend is blessed!
Friday Phone Dump (now that my teen is here to put it together for me:-)
Kind of like finding out you're pregnant again when you wern't expecting it, huh?
ReplyDeleteI know! Total let down! I am not surprised though knowing my social workers....
DeleteOh, and I got all excited along with you. Next time I am sure it will happen. I like the phone dump by your teen. My husband recently took on a new job and needed to use an I-phone. Our 16 year old has been teaching him how to use it. Pretty funny.
ReplyDeleteI have no clue how to use photo shop and rely on the teens here to help me! My I phone? LOVE IT!
DeleteWe had a call like that one recently. There was a young girl in need of a home and even though our home study is not complete, they hoped we might consider her. However, because of certain issues, we prayerfully felt she wasn't a good fit for our family. It was so hard to say no, and by the next day, I was regretting it. But, it turns out that it was the right thing to do. They found a single mom home for her that will be just what she needs to heal, and I am so grateful. Like you, I am waiting for that next time call that just might be the one. God had someone in mind when he put it on our hearts to open up our families to growing through adoption, right? I keep praying for ours, as I am sure you do for yours. How exciting it is to be able to wait and anticipate!! Blessings to you. Heather
ReplyDeleteHeather, thank you so much for the thoughts and kind words. Yes, I believe it all works out for the best.
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