It was just that kind of week!
It was a week of worry. As a mom I worry my kids are growing up too fast and that I am missing it all! As a home school mom I worry I am not teaching everything I should be teaching. As a farmer I worry that my chores are slacking and I worry about the health of my sick goats and the lack of egg production in the hens. As a wife I worry that my husband is working too hard. As a bee keeper I worry about the health of my bees and the lack of surplus honey this year. I am frustrated that this bee keeping gig is mine. All mine. It was supposed to be a joint effort with my dad. I get frustrated that stupid cancer took him away and now it's all my job. It's not as fun anymore, and why do people still use harmful, bee killing chemicals anyway?
Worry creeps in and that allows discouragement to creep in and that kills the joy.
Shame on me.
I am not sure what gets this cycle started, but I know that it's contagious. Once you feel the vibe of the worrisome attitude you can't help but start to worry yourself.
I am not in that frame of mind any longer. I am hopeful, positive, grateful and nothing worries me.
You see there is not room in your head or heart for both worry and joy. You must choose one over the other.
I choose joy.
PS. I might or might not have had it tattooed as a constant reminder:-) It was a date night kicked up a notch:-)
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Speaking of incredible joy....
Zeb turned 5! Where does the time go?
I was planning to make him a yummy M&M cake I saw on Pinterest, but he insisted on a strawberry cake. We browsed the internet for a cake and the boy chose the frilliest, pinkest cake we saw!
It was delicious:-)
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School has started or is about to start for many children in my area.
I have been purchasing books and slowly starting to get things organized and ready for our upcoming year of learning.
Of course this means I have decided to tackle a project! :-) I seriously have difficulties focusing on one task sometimes.
I am about to repaint a cabinet and shelf so I can put it in my living room. Wish me luck!
How do you prepare for the new school year?
Here's hoping you have a week of joy!
Sam, your post read my mind! I too worry that my babies are growing too fast (7, 5, 3, 2, and 7 weeks), I worry that I'm not doing a good enough job schooling them (some days school just doesn't get done and I need to stop feeling guilty about it), the farm is a mess. This summer has been hard, with a new baby and all. The weeds are taller than me and little got planted in the garden this year. Maybe next year our farm will look better and produce more food. Thank you for the reminder that no matter how hard life is, there is joy all around. Hope you are doing better too!
ReplyDeleteNever commented before but I love your blog! Life really needs a pause button sometimes. Stay joyful!
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Love this one! Standing beside you choosing joy. :)
ReplyDeleteI have been dreading the whole school organizing, but knowing it needs to be done. I hear you on the worry/joy stuff. I am naturally a worrier, but try to see the everyday joy around me.
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